Archive for May, 2005

The Beautiful Mind

Saturday, May 28th, 2005

Have any1 watched,"The Beautiful Mind"? This is an extremely wonderful show. A true story abt a Nobel winner, John Nash, a famous mathematician. It was realli well filmed! Thumb ups!

It relates the process from a undergrad, to working life, marriage life, and at old age. Showing the most innocent schoolmates bullies, to pure love between husband and wife and also determination to get rid of mental illness, schizophrenia.

The 1st time when I saw the film in cinema, I was amazed by how realistic the mental illness is to the schiz ppl. I learnt abt schiz frm school, went to IMH saw the ppl with smae illness. Never realise how in the world did they manage to hallucinate that out. From the film, to them, its so so real. Juz like another person presented to U in life. But to the others, no one understand. I have become more empathy to these cases aft the show. Abmsplash_01

Searchin’ for sme1..

Tuesday, May 17th, 2005

Freakin’ Wed  early mornin’, damn bored leh..cant slp becoz of my toopid mensus…having stomach cramps at the same time. So sianz…taut of surfin’ the net.. hope to find smething…duno what exactly, but have bit bit idea…

Anyway, Im lookin’ 4 long-lost friends leh…One in particular, sme1 not in touch for a freakin’ long time…Thomas where are U? Curious leh, after so long do U remember me? What r u doing currently, completed NS liaoz ba..? Have U got ur dream? I noe we cant be together..but aft so many yrs, realli wanna noe how u have been doing…. The 1st few months tat U disappear, I was so depressed… I wrote plenty of letters to U, oni problem duno send to who… Aft a few yrs, i nvr give up, I was in my ex-bf’s car, we drove to smewhere near Ur place. Having not-tat-severe amenisa, I cant recall much. Manage to find the block, the flat..but no one at hme…was very very extremely disappointed…

Hope to get in contact again…

***God Bless***

True frenz & hell of a fuckin’ dogs

Friday, May 6th, 2005

I juz came back frm a friend’s bdae celebration at a local KTV pub. But damn, Im f**kin’ pissed. Let me relate the whole story…..

M was celebrating his bdae, and invited a number of his frenz, close, not-tat-close kind. He booked 2 rooms, one for the pretty close and the another, u noe. Basically, he gt pretty drunk when my friend and I rch the KTV. His not-tat-close "dogs" sabo him, and pester him to drink… By 1, he was already so drunk, tat he can even sit properly, and slouched at the sofa outside the 2rooms. A couple of us were there. And the dogs came out, kip harassing him,"drink lar, u can wan. Tell urself u can, and U can.." F**K! Wat kind of stupid idiotic logic is tat?

M could no longer bear the uncomfortable feelin and he puke. I was sitting beside him. There 2 guys, 2 girls ard dan, including me. While the 2 gals were helping him, bring the plastic to his mouth, making sure he puke watever he has. Guess wat?! One of the 2 dogs said this,"yucks! U stink man!" and WALKED OFF. Hell out of a friend?! The other juz tell the waitress to get tissue, and went back to the room, leaving my friend and I with M.

Close frenz of M, came out helped him out. Cleaned him as much as they could, making him comfortable. Standby him throughout. After several moments of puking, cleaning, tidying him. The dogs came out again… smart? There is a especially dumb-arse-dog, the one who kip tellin’ him, tell Urself U not drunk, dan U wun be drunk. And can drink smemore. My eyes were getting red and hot, I told myself silently, respect M’s frenz/dogs watever. The close frenz were changing hi shirt tat got dirty with a free tshirt from the KTV. Tat dumb arse, took out a chewing gum, and told him after this U will feel better. M was in a dreaded state, he cant even sit himself properly, and U askin’ him to chew GUM? I was furious, I told tat guy, no he will get choke. And insist that he take the gum away. The dumb arse wanted to stuff the gum into M mouth. Out of nowhere, I snatch the gum frm the dumb arse hands, and told him, "look! He cant chew now. he will get choke!" And threw the gum into the bag of pukes.

He must be freakin’ angry But I dun care a damn. Dumb arse tried to be nice, and helped M together with 2close guy friends helped M down the stairs. While waiting for the friend’s car. M was lying down on the pathway. He looked pathetic. The dumb arse still talk rubbish to him, U can wan, u can drink wan. why like tat? The other dog came down, and make sme sarcastic remarks. Sayin’,"aiya!taut we can devils aft this, bdae have to enjoy leh. now oni2" I really couldent stand it any longer. I blurt out smething rude to tat guy. He was furious too. Who cares? Rite?

Anyway, M was helped into the car. And I took a cab back home. This incident really make me realize, U dun big number of friends to be happie with. It really depends on who U are with.

Whoever is reading this now, wash ur eyes with normal saline, Look ard U, who are ur frenz and who are ppl that U SHOULD ACTUALLY MISS OUT IN LIFE.

1st dae of my X.C.Z.L plan..

Monday, May 2nd, 2005

Todae is the 1st dae of my X.C.Z.L plan a.k.a Xin Cheng Ze Lin plan. The ultimate goal of my plan is to slim down to 60kg.I noe it’s still alot, but that’s the  lowest I can go. I have set myself this goal, with a period of 6mths. So, approximately 1kg shld be lost per week. Its a not short, not long period… But I believe X.C.Z.L.

Why I wanna slim down leh? Hmm..coz there is too much unhappiness ard me…I need love, I need bf, I need some1 to accompany me. I noe I got family, buddies, and friends. Despite all these I really really wanna get a bf. Im not desperate, if I am, I would have choosen any ah mao or ah gou. I juz wanna be wif a person I feel comfortable with. I admit, Im fussy. That’s properly why I need someone presentable, and to be fair to that person I have to be presentable as well. Im actually quite confident of myself. I juz wanna be better.. I noe i cant get the slim and slender figure. The least I can do is to make myself more presentable, more….more…..watsoever.. Arghh!!

Pls friendsZasshi33, or anyone whoever reads this…rgdless of any religion..Pray hard hard for me..

If at this point of time I cant succeed, I have decided I will be under the knife.