Christel

Damn boring Mondae lehz..so damn tired….though not much cases, but still abit seow seow 2dae…Gaz me goin’ bonkers soon… Realize this yr Im lik involved in alot fo miscellaneous stuff. Like committee member for D&D function, x-tra for the IC seminar. Sianz… wanna be low profile or retrograde for the time being, juz dun seem to get it.

Haven finish my JCI assignment, though it’s opened-date, but still not tat nice to delay it for too long.

Realize alot of ppl dun commit to werkin’ life. Honestly I dun lik my job, but how many actually do, I still try to make an effort to make sure things run smoothly, at least in the correct manner. Despite all these, sme juz cant seem to compromise and accept the duties and responsibility of individual self. What wrong with these ppl? I know Im no great shake, I noe Im not that GREAT, I mean I try to be, and hopefully can be. U can but why cant U make it easier?

My stupid wt hasnt gone down for the past month, damn it fustrating! My dinner cmin in another 2 mths tim, what the heck am I gonna do? F*** it!

Gettin’ lots of stress nowadaes! Sh*t! Im goin entraged! Pls help me…

S.O.S

Maybe I should put out a post?!

Help desperately needed here. To console, to love, to give support to poor fat girl who is in very, freakin’ stressful working environment and cant seem to get correct weight. To apply pls email to christel_goin_crazy@noideawhere.com or simply call 1666 CHRISTEL

Good idea?

Sighz….so fast third week liaoz,  time really past by real quick. Especially when you are not noticing it. Sometimes I juz feel I nid some time-off to be left alone for myself and myself only.

Im really scared now, a feelin’ of lost in me. Dunnoe what Im doin, dunnoe wat to hope for, dun even noe wat I wan. So lost…., normally Im full of directions, noe wat I wan. Now…it seems so lost..no more vitality, no more spirit, juz plain restless me…. This may sounds pessismistic to alot, but at a point of life… I guess…Im really lost..

Yesterdae nitez, me msia relatives came over to Sg. A long time no see grandma, looks better, dan she was. Though she was still on wheelchair, but lookin’ real good with her strong and powerful voice. She could walk alittle with assistance. Im real glad to see her. I knew she could fight the dreadful disease. She had suffered so much for the past months, now she gettin better. With so many grandchildren, children and ppl supportin her. She will be fine!

Jia you! po po I love U! 

Been havin’ a busy time last wk. Sme stuff to do for work, I nvr thought I would have to bring stuff back hme to do. Now becoz of sme gong² auditing thinks. I gotta do so many many things.. Actually not alot, but too lazy to do lor..hehe…

Imagine, wrk frm 8-5, Mon- Fri, alt. ½ Saturday, already very tired leh…. How am I suppose to do, rite? Anyway, decided to give myself a break, I break real BIG this time, spent over $200/= during the short short wkend…

Nvm abt that, one consolation prize, my long time no see gd fren which I met on Sat, said that I became more ladylike, and slim down leh… U bet im happie!

Oops gtg, tummy ache, time to ng-ng liaoz…

Ciaoz dudes..

Its the first day of Sept., time really flew past. Dunno how many times I have repeated myself but it’s really really true. I always think back, thinkin’ thinkin’ thinkin’ actually I have wanted to do alot alot of things, none came true. Maybe one or two, I wanted to leave Sg, n I left in 2002. I wanna get a nose piercin’, I gt it and 2yrs down, I even had my tongue pierced, had my hair dyed blue at the frontal side frm CNY this yr. Ppl stared at me, frenz and family question why?  Dun ask me why I did it, I duno. No idea at all. I wanna leave Sg again, for a couple of years, to earn more experience overseas, workin’, enjoyin’ smewhere diff frm Sg. It’s not that I hate been in Sg, in fact I love Sg. But juz wanna get to noe more different things, till I spend my rest of the life in Sg. What if I got a bf now? Decide to get married, work for money to buy flat, have baby, commitments to family. I will be, so…juz so tied-down… I dun mean I wanna be single, I do wana have a bf, do wan a family, do wan a baby…but I gt no bf. And there’s nothing that could be done about that. While I can, let’s do it, rite?  I have been plannin’ on & off, thinkin’ shld I go Europe or Perth? The thought of leaving Sg still lingers in my brain..it comes, went off and cme back stronger… What shld I do?