Christel

Damn Xmas coming, sometimes I really hate it. Festive seasons no matter which, always bores me up alot. Making me feel alot more, think alot more & pity alot more.

I jus hate it, when more & more ppl cming around U, asking,"Have U gt a bf?" Dan it will follow by," Nvm, U will definitely find someone." It really really makes me more pathetic.

Who doesn’t wanna have one? And share the happie festive moments with the dearie together. Having smeone to cuddle, to share the seasons’ mood. Obviously I aint got a bf, tat’s proberly why Im always stuck with my gal friends.

Im really the sort of person who really wanna enjoy a gd season, esp. festive one. But I juz aint gt one special someone to share with. Is it the problem with me? I got no darn idea who to blame or who to ask.Pls anyone out there, if U know  it. Tell me!! Im desperate to know the answer. Recently I have been told, that I have an intimidating look. Is it my looks dan? Or plainly not fated to have one? Argh!

Everytime I try to fly, I fall without my wings. I feel so small…I guess I need YOU baby

Where are YOU when YOU are most needed? I wanna be loved, be pampered, be cuddled.

Grandma’s death has passed for 2wks+, some of us in the family still broods over it. Everyone is still hiding, the sadness, the many cant bear to let her go, the depression of a well-loved lost one. Nevertheless, we still strives on, hoping her at the other end, could see and feel us.

I had a 3/7 leave this week, only returned to wrk todae. Had good rest, and rot at hme. Really enoyed it, doing nothing at all, and stay at hme. Best part? Could do watever I like whenever I like!! Also to recuperate, and store sme energy. Im on-call tmlw, the bloody OT list is so damn long! Arghhhhhh!! Cme to tink of it, I nid the money anyway…hheehehe.. Smemore, next week gonna be a busy week, wrkin 7-4 frm Mon-Thurs. Dan gt chalet during the weekends, really shag thinking of it. Really muz admit old liaoz..Today at wrk, Sr Mei gave me oresent, an early X’mas gift. hehee a very nice bracelet frm Africa! Aint it coolz?  The left pics showed the bracelet on my "beautiful" dried hand…( Lucky camera not good, cannot see!!) The second pic shows the other side, meaning, bracelet too big for my hand…wahhaaaa

Anyway, smetimes I really feel very pathetic leh…Why I gt no bf? Alot of ppl askin’ me this quest.? Until Im so…so stressed….actually I feel pretty all rite without one. Initially was juz thinkin, dun have, dun have lor, no big deal…As time pass by, really feel pretty chiam leh, why dun have?? Wah wah wah am I really that bad? I noe slightly bah, but not tat bad rite? Come on guys, look here. Cute, irritating, Caring, f.o.n, Kind, at times..not tat bad leh…consider me or intro sme decent guys to me okie…

I suffered the lost of a dear one 2 weeks ago. It wasnt juz me, the whole family lost her too. She was there, tightening the family ties every now and then. A wonderful friend, been there for everyone. A mother who helps her children whenever they fall. A beloved grandma, always shares wonderful tales of her past for us.

婆婆，我们真的很想念你。

 不敢相信你已经离开我们了。 希望你在世界的另一端活的更快乐。。。

The picture was taken 3yrs ago, taken at Changi Airport Terminal 2. She was there to send me off to Perth, Aus. I have long since graduated, but she is not here anymore.

Maybe one day, we will no longer be sad, but she always hold a special place in my heart. She is one of the dearest family member I have, will always have. It still hurts now…

Life is really short, so short sometimes, you are at the end and you can see it. Cherish life, family, yourself and those around you.