Christel

I have been freakin’ troubled recently. Guess I really dunno wat I want in life. Im already 26 liaoz, and my goal in life is still undecide. Im not sure whether I should take 1 month leave and stay at home and think about it, or should jus go on where it has left.

My wrk load has recently increase, not because of freakin’ appraisals that decides my pay-rise, not because I asked for ( U tink I gong?). Its because of kind souls, who sees potential in me, and pulled me into doing more stuff. Im involved in alot of stuff, some which I dun even know whether I can cope with.

I hate something about myself now, I duno how to reject properly. Thats mainly why I always get involved in stuff which I regret and think Im not up to it. It’s not because Im lazy and dun wish to do it, it’s juz tat I noe my standard, I noe my limits, and I dun wanna get more tombstones for my brain cells. Everything I break my head for ideas, for thinkin’ tons and tons of brain cells die!!

Can you imagine normally at this I would be "dating" with Master Zhou, now Im crackin’ my head again on my script.

And I havent even found a solution for my stage-fright!!

God, please help me! I need it!!!

Im really bothered!

Bothered by the fact that I duno wat my life is gonna be about.

Bothered by people around me wanting to change my life.

Bothered by dun wanna be a stepping stone.

Bothered by duno wats the next time I should take!

Everything seems to come all at a go, my head is cracking, my tension is higher, I need more tombstones for my dead brain cells. Im under a lot of freakin’ stress that Im not I can endure.

Where can I go?!

Everyone juz hate SUNDAYS!!! The dreadful day is coming after it! Damn it!! I hate it! I really hate it!!

Been pretty upset recently, lotsa things happened at work and also at home… My blog has recently become my barrel for my complaints and thoughts. Don’t know why, but juz wanna blurt it out!! Let’s see, events that had and gonna happened are sub-catergorized in 3.

Work & Family & Miscellaneous

WORK EVENTS

1. Insufficient increment
2. Wetlab (Thank God! Its over!!)
3. Debate matters (ARGH!!!!!)
4. Monthly journal club
5. Misunderstandings between colleagues
6. Unfair treatment, double standards, triple standards
7. Low morale of working
8. Never never never get appreciated at work
9. Thoughts about leaving work
10. Can a new place really tolerate my nonsense?!

FAMILY

1. Mummy not feeling well
2. 21st April approaching…
3. Sad memories
4. Trying hard to be strong when Im not

MISCELLANEOUS

1. People around starting to get worry why IM STILL SINGLE
2. Juz cant seem to get enuff sleep, money, shoppin’ & fun

Oh well! That’s my life~~~ La La La

Coming last…..is my strawberry! Bery Bery BIG strawberry!!!  WOo Juz look at the size, the colour and start asking,"OMG! Is that a strawberry??!!"