Christel

Its one week after my debate. Din bother to update, because was too happie enjoying! Although we lost to KKH, but it was a lost at a narrow margin. So, not too bad lor. On positive side, I wun have to go for another round of "crash" debate mx liaoz. Coz the finals is at July, pretty soon.

Lets talk bout the debate, I mus sae ALL hospitals are very great! They have their own supporters! Imagine, cheerleaders! Must realli congratulate them, as they were very very good.

Congratulations to the winning 2 teams, lookin’ forward to watch the finals in July

I have also successfully passed my Basic Opthalmic Nursing course! Hehe despite all these stress, I managed to survive. Realise maybe "some" people need stress. While "some" cant really deal with it. Im the latter.

I really hate stress, really hated the feelin’ of me have to do this, do that, and to meet the expectations of people, fear of people getting disappointed with me. I tried so much to overcome my stage-fright, overcome my stress. Im really not good at it. Guess in the end, people will see me from a different angle, yes, I disappoint them.

I know what Im capable of, I know pretty well my strengths and weaknesses. I know what I can do with strikin’ n flyin’ colours, I know what I cannot do, like my stage-fright. Im not an attention-seeker! I just wanna be like everyone, normal!!

Past week…

Alot of things are coming up, like debate, briefin’ etc etc… Realising Im so busy with my work, social life and not forgetting my dearest family time. I hardly have sme empty space for myself. If Im not workin, Im busy with my social life (Im still not attached, but have lots of nice girlfriends who often go out with me. And yes, I still need a boyfriend. If got, please intro to me), or will be at hme with my family, doing parts and parcel of my debate. So, Im so busy!!!

I have been doing some self-reflection. Sme things which I never taut of before. I always think that my life should be simple, a typical style of Singaporean. Work, get married, earn a sufficient income, have a little family, support my parents, have leisure plans occasionally, grow old and than die.

Maybe it was juz too simple. Someone "preached" to me recently. Sayin; stuff like I shoulden’t juz wrk, with a degree, I should strive hard and let myself be "known" so I got better prospects. My very 1st thought, " Wat the heck?!" But my mind doesnt stop pondering over the question. Im, in fact, considered "lucky" because there are ppl who are willing to "pull" me, willin’ to give me a "chance" to strive. I know people who have everything, not a chance. I know people who is willing to strive, not a chance. Now Im given this special chance, should I go for it?

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