Christel

Juz came back "window-shopping" wif Ms Wilby, was pretty upset because, I din get anything! Argh! Din buy any thing!! Feel so deprived of shopping, so went to shop, ended up nothing to buy. But did something I pretty enjoyed! Hahaha!

Got myself 3 capsule toys! They were cute! I couldn’t resist the temptation!! Argh!! The first one, is a cute blue-eye bunny with a pink hood. The second one, is a drawstring pouch of Nightmare before Christmas!! And lastly, is a miniature of SE mobile.Which I changed some of the components to make it more attractive, naturally! 

Oh well, tats about all!

Oya-sumi nasai!!

I have always love this day of the week! Its Wednesday!! Love it Love it Love it Love it!! Muacks!! It’s juz like !! yESH! Its roller coaster! Hehe, after difficulty in goin’ up, it zoomz..so fast down! Haha..meanin’ it’s nearer to the weekend already! ha ha ha 

Updates about myself:

Im recently in love with this new cartoon anime from Japan, Sanrio. Its’ KUROMI!! Its so cute! I cant resist it! Even cuter then Little Twin Stars!! Juz to share some information.

Description

Kuromi is a white rabbit who wears a black jester’s hat that features a pink skull on the front. She also has a pointed black tail. She usually has an evil or cocky expression, but can also be love-struck.

Friends

Kuromi is sometimes seen riding on a tapir known as Baku. Baku has the power of flight.

Kuromi is the leader of a tricycle gang known as "Kuromi’s 5." Other members include a cat named Nyanmi, a dog named Wanmi, a fox named Konmi, and a mouse named Chumi. They all wear black and drive around in a menacing fashion.

Kuromi is the counterpart to the other Sanrio rabbit character, My Melody. Although My Melody has warm feelings for Kuromi, Kuromi’s feelings are more inclined to rivalry.

Profiles

• Birthday: October 31 (Halloween).
• Personality: Although she looks cruel, she is actually very girly. She loves handsome guys.
• Hobby: She enjoys writing in her diary. These days, she’s into romance stories.
• Favorite colour: Black
• Favorite food: Pickled leeks.

So in any case, anyone wants to buy any..hmm.. ANY gifts for me? Can get Kuromi stuff okie?! Haha…

Some similar things about Kuromi and myself, is looks cruel, actually girly! Doesn’t it sounds like me already?!

Woo~~ wee~~

Was juz listening to a song by a local composer, Redwan Ali. Im sure lots of people must have heard about this particular song, Would you be there? Its so nice!! He he, decided to upload the lyrics, so next time I can browse back and sing to myself,duh so pathetic right? So, whoever likes me, pls confess hor!

Would you be there?

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that’s ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me?
And touch my lips with tender loving care?
Would you die for me?
Would you run with me?
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If I am away, would you still think of me?
And wish that you could hold me now?
Would you die for me?
Would you run with me, all the way?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be there to kiss my pain away?
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be there to kiss my pain away?

Would you be there..
for me?

Nice nice Nice nice Nice nice Nice nice Nice~~

Da~ La Da~ La Da~ La la la

Muz agree with myself, it is a lame title, WTF? After a few weeks?!

Anyway, It’s post short break, post vesak, post enjoyment but beginning of my devilish ideas, beginning of new problems!

Last week, was a pretty short week, I had gotten my leave on Fri, so went in to Msia wif my parents for a short break. A short getaway frm Sg life. Made myself happie, this short days. I cut my hair, super funnie, I colour my hair, super birdie lookin’, I bought stuff, super duper fulfilling!!! Hiak hiak, bought 2 pairs of sandals and a bag at KL.

And yes, maybe Im back to my stupid self! I coloured my hair, to pink! Yes! PINK!! Sorrie guys, I noe some of you DYING TO SEE, wait lar, haven’t got time to load it up yet. Maybe…maybe… well, juz maybe..

Something good happened last week, Im promoted! Although a very small promotion, but shucks! Better then none?! Right?!

Thanks thanks thanks to the ppl who helped to "pull" me up! Thanks hor. Dunnoe whether any of them wil read this, but who cares. At least I say hor!

Still pretty troubled, although after so many things. Thought most have past, but trouble are trouble still present as long as not resolved! Should I stay on??

Its one week after my debate. Din bother to update, because was too happie enjoying! Although we lost to KKH, but it was a lost at a narrow margin. So, not too bad lor. On positive side, I wun have to go for another round of "crash" debate mx liaoz. Coz the finals is at July, pretty soon.

Lets talk bout the debate, I mus sae ALL hospitals are very great! They have their own supporters! Imagine, cheerleaders! Must realli congratulate them, as they were very very good.

Congratulations to the winning 2 teams, lookin’ forward to watch the finals in July

I have also successfully passed my Basic Opthalmic Nursing course! Hehe despite all these stress, I managed to survive. Realise maybe "some" people need stress. While "some" cant really deal with it. Im the latter.

I really hate stress, really hated the feelin’ of me have to do this, do that, and to meet the expectations of people, fear of people getting disappointed with me. I tried so much to overcome my stage-fright, overcome my stress. Im really not good at it. Guess in the end, people will see me from a different angle, yes, I disappoint them.

I know what Im capable of, I know pretty well my strengths and weaknesses. I know what I can do with strikin’ n flyin’ colours, I know what I cannot do, like my stage-fright. Im not an attention-seeker! I just wanna be like everyone, normal!!

Past week…

Alot of things are coming up, like debate, briefin’ etc etc… Realising Im so busy with my work, social life and not forgetting my dearest family time. I hardly have sme empty space for myself. If Im not workin, Im busy with my social life (Im still not attached, but have lots of nice girlfriends who often go out with me. And yes, I still need a boyfriend. If got, please intro to me), or will be at hme with my family, doing parts and parcel of my debate. So, Im so busy!!!

I have been doing some self-reflection. Sme things which I never taut of before. I always think that my life should be simple, a typical style of Singaporean. Work, get married, earn a sufficient income, have a little family, support my parents, have leisure plans occasionally, grow old and than die.

Maybe it was juz too simple. Someone "preached" to me recently. Sayin; stuff like I shoulden’t juz wrk, with a degree, I should strive hard and let myself be "known" so I got better prospects. My very 1st thought, " Wat the heck?!" But my mind doesnt stop pondering over the question. Im, in fact, considered "lucky" because there are ppl who are willing to "pull" me, willin’ to give me a "chance" to strive. I know people who have everything, not a chance. I know people who is willing to strive, not a chance. Now Im given this special chance, should I go for it?

So?

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I have been freakin’ troubled recently. Guess I really dunno wat I want in life. Im already 26 liaoz, and my goal in life is still undecide. Im not sure whether I should take 1 month leave and stay at home and think about it, or should jus go on where it has left.

My wrk load has recently increase, not because of freakin’ appraisals that decides my pay-rise, not because I asked for ( U tink I gong?). Its because of kind souls, who sees potential in me, and pulled me into doing more stuff. Im involved in alot of stuff, some which I dun even know whether I can cope with.

I hate something about myself now, I duno how to reject properly. Thats mainly why I always get involved in stuff which I regret and think Im not up to it. It’s not because Im lazy and dun wish to do it, it’s juz tat I noe my standard, I noe my limits, and I dun wanna get more tombstones for my brain cells. Everything I break my head for ideas, for thinkin’ tons and tons of brain cells die!!

Can you imagine normally at this I would be "dating" with Master Zhou, now Im crackin’ my head again on my script.

And I havent even found a solution for my stage-fright!!

God, please help me! I need it!!!

Im really bothered!

Bothered by the fact that I duno wat my life is gonna be about.

Bothered by people around me wanting to change my life.

Bothered by dun wanna be a stepping stone.

Bothered by duno wats the next time I should take!

Everything seems to come all at a go, my head is cracking, my tension is higher, I need more tombstones for my dead brain cells. Im under a lot of freakin’ stress that Im not I can endure.

Where can I go?!

Everyone juz hate SUNDAYS!!! The dreadful day is coming after it! Damn it!! I hate it! I really hate it!!